Chronic Fatigue and The Blues.

So, it's been a couple weeks since I last sat down to write anything. Despite being in lock-down life has been busy. It has been way too busy and I have been feeling very blue. I am really learning a lot about myself during this time. I value and I mean *VALUE* my alone time. I need that time to practice self-care, to rest, to build up my social energy. As someone who suffers with chronic fatigue - It is so easy to get overwhelmed and I have use my time wisely. Unfortunately, during this whole lock-down/pandemic I have not been able to prioritize my needs and take care of myself well enough. This results in crashing like crazy and feeling angry and blue. It is so hard to explain how hard it is for me to be constantly 'on' and going, going, going.

Chronic Fatigue is a silent killer. You often have no idea that it is creeping up on you. You have to constantly weight up what you can and can't do. Pacing is a way life, not a choice. Honestly I am struggling and that is okay! I think it is important to be honest with yourself. It is hard to pace, it is hard to give everyone what they want from you, it is hard to put yourself first. I am doing my best to have a good sleep routine (as best as I can), move my body everyday, eat regularly and try and find even 5 minutes to myself. I am trying to give myself grace even others don't.

All we can do is out best. If you are out there and are feeling heavy, down, angry, blue. Don't beat yourself up, I am here with you. This is not an easy time and I know that living with a long-term illness is not easy. So, even if no one else gets you, understands how much you are doing, give yourself a little credit. You are doing the best you can and I am proud of you.

I believe that it takes strong and special people to deal with chronic illness and still be living life. You are incredible! Take care of yourself, be kind to yourself and keep going... we got this!

Faithfully,

Becky.